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Aug. 30th, 2010 01:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wildwestheroMy parents used to fight all the time. One of the reasons I didn't mind moving out was that I would be away from them both. I don't know if I really coped all that well with it, and all it did was make me angry at them. Angry at the world. Angry at everyone.
I spent my teenage years at war with everyone. How I managed to get out of that in one piece I'll never know. Well, it certainly triggered my depression, and that's probably never going to go away. I sometimes wonder why they did this to me, why they gave me all this pain. Didn't they love me? I'm sure - most of the time - that they did, but it doesn't make it any easier to swallow.
What makes it so unfair is that Charles' parents are divorced like mine, but he never went through any of the shit I did. I do resent him for that. I'm angry at my best friend. That just makes me angry at myself. I have a broken family and it'll never be fixed again. Maybe that's why I spend so much time with Charles. His family don't hate me, or each other. What I wouldn't give for that sort of family.
But I suppose it's too late now. What's done is done. I'm damaged goods now. I can't imagine why anyone would ever want me.
Andrew
Muses: Charles Firth and Andrew Hansen
Fandom: The Chaser RPS
Word Count: 236
Disclaimer: Not true in any way, shape, or form.
Warnings: Talk of depression
I spent my teenage years at war with everyone. How I managed to get out of that in one piece I'll never know. Well, it certainly triggered my depression, and that's probably never going to go away. I sometimes wonder why they did this to me, why they gave me all this pain. Didn't they love me? I'm sure - most of the time - that they did, but it doesn't make it any easier to swallow.
What makes it so unfair is that Charles' parents are divorced like mine, but he never went through any of the shit I did. I do resent him for that. I'm angry at my best friend. That just makes me angry at myself. I have a broken family and it'll never be fixed again. Maybe that's why I spend so much time with Charles. His family don't hate me, or each other. What I wouldn't give for that sort of family.
But I suppose it's too late now. What's done is done. I'm damaged goods now. I can't imagine why anyone would ever want me.
Andrew
Muses: Charles Firth and Andrew Hansen
Fandom: The Chaser RPS
Word Count: 236
Disclaimer: Not true in any way, shape, or form.
Warnings: Talk of depression